I keep wanting to post, to talk, just about nonsense, but in the end, I’m left with thoughts I don’t want to think about.
What’s been happening? Erm, let’s see.. I miss my dad. I miss the boyfriend. I miss being healthy.
Yep. I am sick. Sick as a.. well, sick person. Please la, I’m allowed to abandon proper speech ability. Or even proper sentence construction. I am sick! I can’t hear properly with my right ear, I have a constant headache and I cough a lot, and it bugs me a lot because I can’t sleep from all the hacking. I’ve been to the doctor’s twice, and both of them told me that I should get enough rest since my immune system is low. Hello. I can’t, I’m so busy with all these things, can you give me something to boost my immune system then?
Sorry, unnecessary anger. Anyway. Been sick, but have got to put up with it because there is just a lot to do.
Why does “being strong” takes so much out of me?
See? I have nothing to post. Maybe I should reply to some of the comments. Let’s see..
Big thanks to War, Wang Ee, Di, Izzah, Syaz, Nana, Ka Ety, Nees, Ka Zian, Amy Heidi, R&AL, Marilyn, Wani, Faz, Emma, Amalina, Pinkie, F, Marlina, Darkness Light, Sza, Eva, Fauzia, Amy, hamba Allah, Aizah, Affy, Sudu, Nazme, Lish and Rosie.
Shanobyl, thank you. I’m so sorry for the loss of your aunt.
SoulJah, yes, he was very proud. He was even more proud when one of my lecturers told him that I was one of her better students and that she has faith in me to actually take up a doctorate! I’m happy he knows.
Zippy, did I ever tell you that my mom knew your late father? Anyway.. I’m still taking those steps to move forward. Somewhat think I’m stuck in a moment.
Ness, when I went to rest after I came home from the emergency, I wished it was all a dream. A premonition of sorts, something to tell me to spend every second with my dad. Thank you for your kind words, in the comment and in your text. Hugs.
Allydee, it came as a shock to me as he was very, very, apa nya orang Brunei? Cakah?.. yea, he was very much so, and, like I mentioned earlier in one of my replies, I’m stuck in a moment.
Leejah, I’m not good with scenes as well, hehe. But thank you for coming the other day. The news about Syiqah’s late mother came as a shock to me too.
SBC, thanks so much for leaving comments. :) Your forgot your “First!”. Hehe. Anyway, it’s now one less person who knows me inside and out, and we all have got to learn to adapt, right? By the by, I need updates. Soon.
Nonnie, he was a good dad. He gave me practically everything I’ve ever wanted and he touched my life the way no one has ever had. He made me who I am today, and I think I’ve got my sense of humour from him. Heehee.
Sel, I thought I was back to normal, hehe. But the times when I was quiet was when I was thinking about the plans we made to go to a studio to get the whole family’s picture taken with my newly-attained HND on Friday. But, as my mom had said, “We can only make plans, everything else is in Allah’s hands.”
Ezah, sometimes I think that he’s in the other room, watching TV, catching his breath, or just looking on as we all do our house chores. I miss him in the way he looks at us, in the way he disapproves or approves of things.. in the way he finds things funny. You know. Things like that.
All right. I think I’m done for today. More soon, when I get my health back and my sense of.. something that I don’t know I lost. :P